time check: 2.55 am
currently: listening to JACKSON 5's who's loving you.
mood: CONFUSED. and somehow happy.
HOOOORAYY ! no school tomorrow! * dances around *
lmao.
anyways i've just figured out why im kinda happy this week. it's because there's no stress like NCP skit competition nagging at me. and it feels kinda nice. it's been quite awnile since i had this feeling. how long can this continue? hmm. according to calculations, i should start feeling stress again next tuesday. heh.
today's lessons were okay. there was a little studying for geog,ss,eng and phy.
come to think of it, i was the only one who really studied. hahas.
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enough of school. i've been looking at videos of teens and kids singing on stage.
yes, it's true. i have no life when i sing on stage. i just don't know why. even for drama i can't act well. both my aca and drama instructors say the same thing.
one of the reasons i can give is the chemistry between my fellow performing mates.
sometimes i feel that no one can see that im there. as a team, everyone should be equal.
even for aca concert @ esplanade there were a few songs which i know i look deadish. same goes for ignite concert. ( gosh, do i need to say anything for that? ) there isn't any interection. and backstage i can feel the distance from them.
wait, am i even meant for performing on stage?
what if im not? oh no ..
that would waste every precious hours practising singing and acting.
or maybe im just meant to do solo. hmm.
after i finish sec school drama. we'll see .. i'll try to explore.
and no worries aca mates, i won't quit just yet :D
im so confused about my performing self.
sigh. feeling stressed ... about now. hahas.
im so childish -.-"
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okayys. it's 3.27am now.
time to sleep . hopefully.
did you see that kimberly?
move move move !
but how ? D:
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