Soooo .. school tomorrow ehh? AWESOME! ....
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NOT.
anyway drama camp was .... uhm ... okay? had rehearsals, a bbq dinner with some senior-junior time. totally missed them! :( after that slept around 3plus with 4air-cons at 16degrees freezing the shitz out of us. :/
second day went for rehearsal @ PLMGSS. it's was a mess but i guess we still made it through.
went home around 7.15. ended the day by crying then sleeping.
as i walked through PLMGSS, i could still remember every single detail of the previous ignite concert. all the rehearsals, screaming, make-up and scolding. i also remembered staring at him alot. i loved how he looked.
I SERIOUSLY MISS YOU.of course, there's nothing much i can do now other than hope he'll be there.
i guess what im blogging is pretty obvious already. but then again, let it be. sooner or later, i'll forget you. i want to tell you but i can't. i just can't.
IM PATHETIC.hopefully this year's ignite won't be as bad. after last year's ignite, while everyone celebrated behind the curtains, i cried inside, took a good look around me and left. i felt so invisible, no one cared about my existance for that 10minutes. in order not to worry my parents or anything, i just pretended that i enjoyed everything. truth is, i didn't.
everything feels so painful right now.
i wish you knew.p.s: i NEED TO IMPROVE MY ENGLISH.Labels: merrygoround, random, rant
